Bitter with a touch of annoyance

You would think this applies to everyone, right?  I mean we all make mistakes and we are supposed to learn from them but right now I am really annoyed over the fact that I can plan a days worth of what I am going to eat, write it down, bring it with me and STILL not follow it?! I ended today at 1600/44/113/182 because I ate a bunch of air popped popcorn and too many sliced almonds.  The only reason I went over in fat is because I ate peanut butter this morning and then ate the almonds later in the day.  My trainer I can tell has about had it with this little mishaps and rightfully so.  We, I, don't have that much time left and I am getting really frustrated that I can't seem to just get this right.  The frustrated leads to the negative thoughts about being a failure and mind as well give up which leads to me being frustrated, angry and hungry and wanting to binge out on food.  Now I know that is NOT what I want to do right now.  I actually would really LOVE to get in my bed considering my alarm is set for 6am for creepers sake.  I weigh in on Saturday morning and I am just really nervous that I putting myself down the tubes.

I think maybe I am not getting enough fat in with my meals thanks to Vicki bringing it to my attention, but since I only have 36 grams to work with and if I eat5 meals everyday thats not much :(  maybe this is why I am not feeling full?  This is so hard.  I will never say it has been an easy road.  I wish I could say this was a breeze but..it's not...and I am going to bed...blah